It's been forever since I have written on here, and I don't even know if anyone reads this, but I felt like writing anyways.
I am sitting here in my basement, knowing I should be doing homework but I can't help but think about other things. (Which means it'll be a late night tonight and tomorrow...)
Lately it feels like my life has been way too crazy to handle, and I seem to have lost sight of things. But now I feel more at peace with things. I think I am finally letting God be in control, and realizing that He is Almighty. Again.
My friend Lisa and I recently decided that we would work at holding each other accountable for things. All things.
There is a verse that I know is her favourite verse, and I am holding onto it tightly right now.
Proverbs 31:25
"She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come."
We were talking about how we want to learn to trust God more, and be able to laugh at the days to come. To laugh, and not worry about the future.
This image of a woman who is connected so closely to her Heavenly Father, and she walks around with His love shining through her. With dignity and grace. And I want to be that woman. Father teach be to be that woman. Lead me to be that woman.
Last night I talked to Bre. It was so good to hear her voice, and just to laugh with her about nothing. It's amazing how I feel God's joy when I talk and laugh with her. She was praying for me and her and us and we both just kept laughing, and it was uncontrollable and uncontainable. Pure joy. Everytime I laugh with her, even if it's just on the phone, because she lives far away, I just get the word "daughter" in my head. I think it's because we can't help but be the daughters we are made to be. Daughters of the King. And I know our Father is looking at us, and laughing with us, and just IS with us. Those are truly moments of unexplainable joy.
Thank you Father for moments like that. Thank you for allowing us just to be your daughters, who can laugh and cry together. And share our hearts with each other and with you. Thank you Father. I love being your daughter.
